one last thing before i go, it was a sad attempt at writing the chorus to a song, here she be, it was inspired by a friend of mine and a story we made together.

Hero Boy,

Don't die for me,

Walk Away,

And Save yourself.

Don't Regret.

You cannot save us all.

Save yourself,

And live for her.

Hero Boy...

Turn away...

You cannot save us all...

Don't die for me...

Save yourself,

And live for her...

well i hardly update this these days, but you can find me at:

well tonight was great, i had a few drinks and got to hang out with my oldest friend, now all i need is my hetero-lifemate here and things would be perfect

work's been great, i can't think of a better job, i bust my ass and work harder than i ever have before, i think it's something that's really good for me, i've never loved working more in my life.

it's all quite now, save the tapping of my keyboard and the quiet murmur of the song that's playing a sad melody, whispering gently from the speakers of my computer....it's a time when things slowly form into some semblence of realism and i can see a little clearer than before....what i see makes me a little sad....just a little but right now i'm kinda sick of being single, i've dipped into the dating pool a little but when i reeled up nothing was on the line but a festering boot that once kicked my ass, luckily it wasn't connected to one of the feet that once before booted me in the soft spot, being single sucks sometimes and that's all i have to say about that

i wish i had more freetime....i work a lil too much that's the only thing i cannot stand, i tried calling a really old friend of mine but her phone no longer accepts incoming calls, hearin that was the third saddest day of my life

 right now i'm doing some major preparing for the inevitable, that last few shadows of happiness i have in this town these days are leaving soon, after that i'm all on my own, i'm really not looking forward to it, and the only thing that's keeping me going right now is the hope for the future....

so i'm just soldiering on, the best way i know how, it's a difficult tred all my biggest support comes from miles upon miles away, so far out of reach, it sounds so emo, but i find myself wishing for the old days so much now

well that's about all i needed to lift off my chest, peace out, war in...

wow that last post was nuts....anyway i have a job, it's great, i'm so excited, i can finally put my educatoin to some friggin' use!

i've been thinkin' lately, i miss a lot of people, a lot of them are even in town, but i never get to see them, i dunno i guess people are just busy with their own lives and all it's kinda poo-tabular but what the hell huh? i see a lot of my old friends lately but most of them have gotten strange it's  rather uncomfortable being around them sometimes

i'm drawing again, it feels really good, and my tattoo is coming out great, i have a few more sessions before it's finished it's going to look awesome

i feel kinda bad, i've been neglecting some of my obligations as of late, i think i need to get stuff back on track, but then again i've gone back to feeling like an outsider in the circles i've ran, it goes back to what i said earlier about feeling odd around some of my friends, too much friggin' drama stuff, and it's not even worth while crap it's just petty people fighting over stupid ass bullshtuff hm....anyways my sketch pad is waiting, peace out, war in